Khriz

No I am not going on my mission, and about 90% of my friends and family look down on me for the decision made. But it's alright, I know what they are thinking. But just because someone does not go on a mission that doesn't mean that person is going to end up being like everyone else. It is true, a mission does change your life and gives you an idea of what you really should do... Other than clubbing and drinking and smoking with your friends for the rest of your life. It shows you the things that really matter in life.
It does make it kinda sad how the rest of the ones that don't go on a mission just quit and leave... But I am different, I don't care how much bad or sad they make me feel, I am still doing what I need to be doing and no one is taking me down that easy just because I decided not to do something that EVERYONE expects me to do. To make my point short, being a missionary is just basically not in me.
I understand that the church needs more members and wants to expand themselves(Ourselves) out there, to be seen by everyone. But making guys that don't go on a mission feel bad about themselves doesn't help a bit. I am not saying the church does that, but there are alot of people that are members of the church that take so much pride on themselves, that they forget who they really are and want to point out faults(No guys, it is not the church, this world has people out there, no matter what religion or race or sex , with VERY cold hearts even if they do look polite and nice.)

Religion has nothing to do with the type of people that it brings, to a point it does... But regardless religion or race or anything else... People are and will always be themselves.

But hey, I am still a member, I am still active paying my tithing and doing all that I should be doing to an extent. And what I mean to as an extent is that... I follow the rules and do what I am suppose to be doing, if there is something that I do not agree with or don't like in a certain way(Makes me feel uncomfortable to make it more specific, wont name anything as someone that is already Mormon and reading this might get an idea of what I am talking about), I just don't do it. My bishop knows that and knows how I am. I am not saying that I am perfect, I do have my own faults and they are many... Which I will not share with anyone. But this is who I am... I know the consequences and I am willing to take responsability over them.

I know it's hard to be a Mormon. It is just SO strict... Everything is done with such caution and it is so hard to keep up at it. But believe me that good things do come out of it. With great sacrifices come great things.

Do I regret not going on my mission? Not exactly... Why? Because I didn't turn out to be someone to be ashamed of myself.

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