Yes I have to say my parents piss me off. But around 96% my mom. Recently this year, not really recent anymore, 4 months ago, my mom suffered from mental illness which made her paranoid. Before this illness, my mom was a paronoid freak since the day I was born. She let me down many many times, discourages me and depresses me big time. about more than a 1000 freakin times like she tries to kill me mentally. You might think I am a sicko that I hate the person who gave birth to me, I have to tell you guys something, what ever you think of is right or what you believe, love your mom, that does not work in my family. There's no love nor care I received, I am amazed why I'm still alive after surviving several mental breakdowns that I thought I had from a young age. There were occasions when I started arguing with my mom when she had mental illness, until my dad came pissed that I was the one who made the trouble but It was obviously her fault. My dad was like nearly angry but my mom kept nagging like the thing irrelevant to the situation like me failing my studies I kept playing games and f'ing around with my life. The things she said was true but she can amplify my failure a 100 times by how she say it and how she make her voice. My dad at those occasions( 3 times already) suddenly snapped and grabbed my wrist and punched at my arm( my right arm always). He said" I'm going TO KILL YOU." at my face and saying the samething like I will get a heart attack by me and like I should get kicked out of the house right now. and grabbed a blunt or sharp object threaten to kill me. But my mom will act fake and keep pushing my dad not to kill me. When the times cool down, I would be totally emo and my mom was like provoking me to get angry again by nagging. Many times I wish the blasphemous thing that will befall to the one I call mom, my relationship with her, all I could say, there's no love there's hate, and I rather be the one to die than living in the crazy house with her
In other terms I'm got "mom issues". Please someone save me, I am not joking.
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