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Neebus · 08-04-2007, 07:35 PM

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I have three sons, ages 16, 15, and 12. I was also in an abusive marriage for ten years in which my 15 year old was a frequent target of my x husband. These boys had a rough time of it, as did we all.

After I left my husband my children acted out for a short time, we all spoke of feeling relief and feeling safe yet there were still some rough spots as I got the hang of trying to do it alone.

Several years ago my accountability program found that the computer had been accessing pornography. Turns out it was my middle son. To date he has been 'caught' accessing pornography many times since then. He was 13 I think when this started.

I banned him from the computer, but after a few months I would allow him to be on it for short periods of time. Each and every single time my son would access pornography within days (and sometimes hours) of being allowed back online. He was aware that he would be caught because the computers are monitored but he chose to do it anyway.

Most recently my youngest son allowed my middle son to play with his PSP. Brandon (the middle child) used it to immediately access pornography online. The child is now banned from computers, video games and so forth. I've talked until I'm blue in the face, I've grown angry and yelled, I've cried when I was alone and when I was in front of him. I've had him read Dworkin, my site, and other places (namely OAG's site) and I still can't unseat this problem. He can recite feminist literature all day long, he can understand the tenets, the ideas behind it, how it links together but he will not allow this knowledge to stand in the way of his porn use.

I don't think I'm looking for advice (I've tried everything I could think of so far) but more a place to simply be sad. I can clearly see why he's looking at pornography, I've figured all that out readily enough, but I can't seem to make it stop.

I know, that as soon as my child leaves my home and moves into his own place that he will be looking at porn immediately. I know that I am raising a problem for women. I know that this child will one day grow and will fully absorb the messages that porn sends to men. I know that my child masturbates to degradation of my people (when I use that phrase I mean womyn) and that with every orgasm he will further solidify his own hatred of and superiority over, women.

I know that there will likely come a day where my son coerces a young woman into sex (rape) and there isn't a damned thing I can do about it. I look into the eyes of my son and they still sparkle like they did when he was a baby, but he's not a baby anymore, he's growing into a man and that man will have trained himself to degrade women before he leaves my home.

As a radical feminist who puts women first I cannot begin to determine what I should do with regards to this issue. My heart breaks because there is nothing I can do to protect the womyn he will come into contact with.

I have three boys. One of them is lost to me and as a mother and a radical womyn this breaks my heart in a way I can scarcely express. I don't know if it says something terrible about me, but you know what haunts me late at night? More than anything else? I know, in my heart of hearts that, knowing what I know now, if I had it to do over again I would have had that abortion.

I also find myself blaming myself over and over again, even though that radical womyn inside of me stands up and yells that I'm placing blame in the wrong place. I'm not sure what I intended to say with this message. I began writing it this morning and put it away again and finally decided to finish it this evening. I think that maybe I just wanted to share, I keep trying with Brandon and I keep failing. He simply doesn't care. When he wants to jerk off, everything goes right out the window.

http://www.womensspace.org/Feminist_Motherhood/182.html

I wonder if she wishes she didn't date dudes because we look at porn.
I wonder if she wishes she wasn't born because her dad looked at porn.
I wonder if she wishes she didn't drive because that guy next to her in the ford pick up looks at porn.
I wonder if she wishes she didn't live in a home because the guy who built it...looks at gay porn.

Stupid Women, maybe this will teach them to stay in that God Damn kitchen and know their place in life(NOT BOTHERING US WHILE LOOK AT N00DS).

I'm partly kidding.

Bacn · 08-04-2007, 07:43 PM

Some people need to learn self-control.

kcool · 08-04-2007, 07:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Bacn

Some people need to learn self-control.

yes yes true that

Cingal · 08-04-2007, 07:44 PM

Self control?

W..what?

Anyway, that's quite a bit of an over-reaction...

Bacn · 08-04-2007, 07:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Cingal

Self control?

W..what?

Anyway, that's quite a bit of an over-reaction...

I was thinking the same thing but then I realized how desperate this kid is.

1337AsianX · 08-04-2007, 07:47 PM

Lmfao....retarded woman of the year.

Greed · 08-04-2007, 07:51 PM

Some one should tell her.. her mom's a pornstar.

soe1 · 08-04-2007, 07:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Bacn

I was thinking the same thing but then I realized how desperate this kid is.

that means ur REAL desperate.. plz dont ask me why..

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its harmones........ u stop nature like that, NEVARRR!!

Bacn · 08-04-2007, 07:54 PM

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Originally Posted by soe1

that means ur REAL desperate.. plz dont ask me why..

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its harmones........ u stop nature like that, NEVARRR!!

Harmones or not that kid is sad.

TheRequiem · 08-04-2007, 07:55 PM

Lolz. Well most males fap. Its a common thing, deal with it.
Well..LETS HAVE THE ENTIRE WORLD JUST BE WOOPHITY HAPPY SHALL WE?

08-04-2007, 07:43 PM	#2 (permalink)
Bacn It's Bacon!!! Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Dogenzaka Hill Posts: 7,868 Reputation: 228	Some people need to learn self-control. __________________ First Came The Question Then Came The Answer

08-04-2007, 07:44 PM	#4 (permalink)
Cingal The Devil's Advocate. Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Oh, you know, around. Posts: 11,701 Reputation: 301	Self control? W..what? Anyway, that's quite a bit of an over-reaction... __________________ On nights like tonight, When no one's around. I sit in the dark, with my hands on the ground. And I smile like the devil smiles. Unseen but proud.

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Greed OnRPG Elite Member! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Oakwood USA :O Posts: 9,998,999 Posts: 12,038 Reputation: 113	Some one should tell her.. her mom's a pornstar. __________________

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TheRequiem Firor's Fury Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: I love you. Posts: 3,072 Reputation: 30	Lolz. Well most males fap. Its a common thing, deal with it. Well..LETS HAVE THE ENTIRE WORLD JUST BE WOOPHITY HAPPY SHALL WE? __________________

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1337AsianX Banned Join Date: Jun 2007 Posts: 587 Reputation: 17	Lmfao....retarded woman of the year.