((OOC: Erm, I had to do some hardcore editing of Lumi's past and the past post of the flashback involving her parents, when, in reality, her mother had already died before Lumi reached the age of eight. Also, she now lost her brother at the age of ten and--ah, who cares T.T ))
Lumi laid onto the soft pillow, her eyes feeling heavy all of a sudden. Her silvery blue hair branched out in various directions as her soft breath released itself from her mouth, her chest growing and declining along with the rhythm of her breath. Lumi had pulled out a dark blue pajama set earlier, with small white stars dotting the pants, and a white moon with the words, "
Starlight," on it in white (and in the fame font
). She resettled herself in the light violet comforter (or large blanket) occasionally, until she truly drifted asleep.
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Lumi was standing in a hospital, about the age of four, her fully black hair falling down on her shoulders, held in pinky tails by red ribbons. Lumi's grayish green eyes were focused on a dying woman on front of her, her small arms wrapped around the woman's left arm.
"Lumi, do not ever feel hatred for what you are," The woman turned to her to say, her icy blue eyes more pale than normal.
"Mommy, your not going to leave me, right?" Lumi pleaded, tears starting to form around the edges of her eyes. "You said you would not leave this world. Didn't you?"
The woman, on the verge of death, did not look ill at all. Her features were still young, and her indigo hair, which fell down on the edge of the bed as she talked to her daughter, had not an ounce of gray hair in it. It seemed to be a disease that did not cause her body to grow faster, but die slowly in the inside. It was a strange thing, since when this happens, the effects show on your outer appearance. The momment Lumi's mother collapsed on the ground, she was sent directly to the hospital, everyone assuming she had merely fainted from exhaustion. When the docter's fully examined her, they were shocked to find out that her heart was barely beating, and that a lot of her organs were malfunctioning. Everyone was asked to leave the room, but Lumi insisted to stay. Now she was hanging on her mother, who was growing colder every minute, hoping and praying she would not die.
"Mommy said she would always be with me, right?" Lumi could no longer contain her tears, and great blobs of liquid poured forth from her tiny eyes. Her mother could not comfort her in her arms any longer, and merely spoked until she could no longer do so.
"Lumi, dear, if all you do is cry, how will you become stronger?" Her mother questioned, her voice fading. "Was it not you who said that you wanted to be the best mage ever? Do not ever think your powers are cursed, because they are a blessing. The only way they can be such disgrace is if you use it in a dark manner. Remember when I had told you that quote? 'A weapon does not control you- you control the weapon.' It is the same with your powers. No one can ever say they became berserk from having too much power. It was their greed and selfishness that flowed through their powers and made them go into such a state. Always remain pure to your powers and use them for good. I know those are clichéd final words, but that is all I need you to do for me."
"Mommy, do not say that!" Lumi exclaimed suddenly, pounding on her mother's wrist. "You won't die! You can't die! I won't let you die! It's not fair! Why is it that we have to suffer? Why!? Is it because we are different? You say it is good to stay true to your powers--to yourself--but what about everyeone else? Why aren't they true to themselves!? It does not make sense! Why are we the ones that suffer for doing what is right!? This world did this to you! It is tainted, and its impurity has made you suffer! That's it! That is why you are leaving me! I am not a bad girl! I am not a bad girl! I am not a bad girl--!"
"I know, but you must not let that anger fill you up," Lumi's mother told her, her voice almost a whisper now. "There will be many that walk the path of hatred, but you must not be one of them. Hatred only blinds people, turning them into impure monsters. That is why you must always remain true to yourself. Never lose the path you are following, even till you reach the very end. If you do, your spirit will drift to a very bad place."
"I know, mommy," Lumi whispered, holding back tears. "Mommy will go to a good place, right? No, I know mommy will go to a good place."
"Lumi, I want you to have this," Lumi's mother said, removing a necklace from her neck. "May it bring...you...luuuhh..."
Lumi took the precious necklace in her hand. It had a beautiful glass angel on it, or so she thought. If it was glass, it surely would have chipped or even shattered by now, yet it was in perfect condition. The angel had a round face, with closed eyes, a small nose, and an open mouth, as though she was singing. Whoever the artist was put a lot of detail in it, the hair showing the efect of speading hair and you could even see each finger folded together, each finger clinging in between the nexta little below the head, which was tilted up. Her dress flowed down magnificantly, the small toes could be seen, as well as part of the legs, if you flipped it around. On top of that, it was small enough to fit in the palm of a hand, (well, in this case, the palm of a teenagers hand) making it seem all the more delicate. The same clear material, in the shape of small diamonds, somehow held themselves together too. The necklace appeared to be indestructible, yet the most fantastic piece of art Lumi had ever saw.
"Mommy, its--"
Her mother had already past away, unmoving in her death bed, aside from the wavering arm Lumi clung to. She knew it would not bring her mother back if she cried, yet the warm liquid kept foaming from her eyes. Lumi shut her eys, bit her lip, did all she could to stop the tears from coming, but it was of no hope. A voice from inside of her rung out through the room, alerting the doctors, who saw the girl screaming and placing her whole bdy against the lifeless arm, as though the dead woman would rise up and hug the saddened girl. It took the doctors awhile to loosen her from her lifeless mother, and a few more minutes to get Lumi to calm down. Lumi had already placed the necklace around her neck, taking one last look at it before drifting to sleep.
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Lumi found herself sweating and crying when she woke up, obviously reacting to the "dream" she had just had. Reaching around her neck, she could feel the chain of the necklace run across her fingers. Trying to shake the depressed feeling that now filled her whole being, Lumi rolled over on the bed, now facing the right, her ear against the pillow. She saw that she had kicked the covers off her, and took a minute before placing them back over her shoulder.
"Mom," Lumi whispered as the angel finally came into her touch. "I won't ever give up, okay? Besides, I have Algus with me now, and Spica. I just hope she continues to journey with us."
((OOC: I was listening to Return to Zanarkand, or To Zanarkand to those that post it on youtube, and Within Temptation- Somewhere
So yay, sad dream o.o I mean, emotional scene! >.< Oh nevermind...
*whistles* Pretty long post, if I do say so myself
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