im not even really in love with him. im in love with who he USED to be. if i could only turn him bacc into the old him. im just wishing he'd wake the fucc up and turn bacc into the old him. i dont wanna let go of him. its hard. =( but i know in reality its the best thing to do. like heavens know who hes fuccing right now. =/ i dunno how to get over him. like ill think im over him, but then ill see a picture of him with another girl and im just like =/
we're trying, we really are trying to be friends, we're sorta trying to be more than friends.
it's hard.
things will start off nice, but then it ALWAYS ends up bad. he starts being such a jerk for no reason. he's off in art school, and i'm sure he's going around talking to other girls. not that i even asked but he was like "oh i don't look at other girls, i was asleep!" "right, because i really asked why you hit me up so late." and i know it's bs, because he's one of those guys who changes their away messages over everything. i know he was out with some girl. it breaks my heart.