Google or youtube it? Don't know too much about it myself. Either way, meditation is not a solution so you'll have to face a doc again sooner or later I'm afraid.
Having watched The Number 23, I can safely say you're screwed.
It's because your fixated on such a number duby.
if you place any meaning in any number, you'll start seeing it everywhere. it doesn't mean anything, dub.
I hate TALKING. to PEOPLE. about THINGS.
I constantly see the number 1. Everywhere I look. But that's probably just because I am awesome and win at life.
*Drinks Henri Jayer Cros Parantoux from the Holy Grail while playing blackjack and being paid by hookers for company*