Well as you all know i have venting and whined here for so long. Because of my depression and stuff. Well my doctor gave me some new depression pills to go with my zoloft and anxiety pills. ive restarted my zoloft last week after i quit taking them for almost a year. and they them selfs barely worked but im slowly thinking positive about life now. now with these new pills i feel for once in my life i may feel happy. im slowly gotten to where i look at things different. i used to only look forward to death. but now i look at things the simple things. i saw a moth in my room last night flying around and he landed on my hand. it actually made me smile. the anixty pills haven't had to much of a chance to work but they are calming me down. im not on the xanys any more they did not work. but what made me the most happy is my doc sat down and said im not schizophrenic and all the other doctors have wrong diagnosed me. she said the voices in my head and my other problems are comeing from my post traumatic stress disorder. i got a new therapist im going to see soon to try to get help. i just wanted to share. as i feel like for once in my life im going to get better. i feel still not 100 percent happy but im not sitting around like a zombie sad and depressed. i am thinking postive for once and am going to try to live life the best i can. i only can live once i might as well live it the fullist i can. thanks guys for reading. i know i worded it wrong im half a sleep becuase of them meds.