So I've been pretty close in terms of friendship, since my high school days with this girl, who is a stud/tomboy. I mean close close as in, she's literally wing manned for me at the club, we drink together, kick it etc. I've never looked at her as a female but more of a homie.
The Sunday night we was kicking it since neither one of us worked Monday cause of MLK day. We were originally supposed to pre game at my place with some other friends and then hit up a night lounge but it was cold as shit and no one came through so we stayed in and finished the bottle we had.
I got up to get some more juice to wash the alcohol aftertaste that was lingering on my tongue and when I sat down I sat kinda close to her. We got to drunk talking for a min, and she said "you know, I'm straight fem (oxymoronic?) but if there was any 'n word' I'd let hit it'd be you" "you been the a1 since day 1"
I said I wouldn't smash cause I don't see you like that plus I've known you long enough that you kinda look like a dude now to me.
Long story short we ended up having sex anyways. Right there in my living room.
But I don't know what to feel. We haven't talked since and when we woke up she ducked off quick. No texts or anything. Like I feel bad cause that's my legit friend. I've told stuff I wouldn't tell anyone. She texted me earlier today said she's doing some thinking and that's it. I think her phone is off cause she has an iPhone and if you message someone with an iPhone it lets you know if it's been delivered or not. If it doesn't say so then their phone is off or they blocked ur #.
I don't know how to fix this I honestly don't.