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[MoonlightDarkness]

Alive...

Alive. I am alive...

How many of you felt the numbing cold pain of death? How many of you felt the fear of never waking up? How many of you closed your eyes and heard people telling you to wake up?

Tis a sad thing to throw one's life away. I was so foolish doing so.

February 14, 2009. I will never forget the nightmares I had to face that day.

All because of what? Not being able to go to my "friends, beloved, and God?" Because of them, I nearly died in vain for something selfish and unattainable. Yet when I lied in that empty bed recovering, they never saw me. Not even once. Swallowing more than 90 Tylenol PM pills just for what? Nothing but harming myself and causing worry to my family and those that actually take care of me, the group home.

I wil never forgive the church for all the harm they have done. They ruined my life, from the time they told me to stop my medication to forcing me to do a suicide attempt. I will always say this,

God is dead. I am alive.

http://d35sign.blogspot.com/


I really am having so much stress in my life. It was really foolish to try to commit suicide. My parents are stressed out even more, since they might have lost another, while buring my brother in China. One thing is certain is that I'm fed up with religion and "God" trying to ruin my life. This event just haunts me from time to time, and I really can't say how bad I have to live through life now...

My liver is somewhat damaged due to the overdose, and now I have to live through that...

[xkittyxlicksx]

Religion is not for everyone, it might be easier for you to realize that there is no God. There is no blind faith, or supreme being, for you to fall back on at this moment in time (I cannot speak for the afterlife, of course).

You may feel alone, like this world is choking you. I can't give you any answers to that. But you are not alone in what you are feeling. There are billions of human beings, your condition is most like a frequent one.

Take care of yourself.

[Norrin Radd]

Generally, people in true depression don't have the time to make pseudo-intellectual blog posts.

If you do actually feel that way, though, then my advice is to surround yourself with genuine people who care and will listen.

Snakes are everywhere, watch out for them. They'll see that you're vulnerable and come slithering.

[Drinko]

Generally, people in true depression don't have the time to make pseudo-intellectual blog posts.

If you do actually feel that way, though, then my advice is to surround yourself with genuine people who care and will listen.

Snakes are everywhere, watch out for them. They'll see that you're vulnerable and come slithering.

Little silly, mate

[Norrin Radd]

Little silly, mate

...well go on, then.

Wait...you're one of those "I'm not going to get involved, but I'll ironically get involved just enough to make a one liner."?

Either counter my claims or you know...say nothing and don't expect to be taken seriously.

I could understand if I came here ripping into the guy, I made an honest comment and then offered him advice in the event that he isn't messing around. I wasn't accusing him of being a faker or anything.

[Drinko]

...well go on, then.

Wait...you're one of those "I'm not going to get involved, but I'll ironically get involved just enough to make a one liner."?

Either counter my claims or you know...say nothing and don't expect to be taken seriously.

I could understand if I came here ripping into the guy, I made an honest comment and then offered him advice in the event that he isn't messing around. I wasn't accusing him of being a faker or anything.

Thats not my point. Im not here to argue how much your comment further hurt his feelings or how much a faker he is. Im here to argue how the hell you came to that conclusion that people who are in a depressive situation ( being one who have tried/thought suicide) cant make pseudo-intellectual blogs/comments?

[xkittyxlicksx]

Yeah, Norrin. Real depressed people can't write about their feelings. Fo sho.

[kait0s]

I duno what your going thro, and it sounds like it sucks. But you made it thro.

Your stronger, you learned. This is life.

This is how it works.

You keep marching til you fall. And when that happens, you get up. And if you cant. You crawl.



Try googling world problems or world hunger and prepare for battle.

Your about to find out you have it great. And might even feel weak for the way your acting over certain situations. (might not work in this situation, just fyi i guess)

I do this at times to remind me how silly my problems are.

It helps me laugh at my situation and just move on.

Edit: If real depressed people cant write about their feelings, then Edgar Poe is a fake.

And i want my life back.