I know i act weird. Strange odd. What ever. Thing is im very loney. And sad. I dont have nothing to do but talk to my self. And to the voices in my head. I made one of my only friend look stupid. I am sorry. I wont say who it is.
Again im sorry. A lot of you guys have a life. My life is the same goddamn thing every day. Get up. Wake up. Then it starts. Im alone in my own world. I hate every thing about my self.I hate life. I hate liveing. But i deal with it. I did do one good thing and that is that quit cutting. But the urges are still there. I still have my toys. But locked away. I have a very dark mind. And i know what im about to say is going to most likey make many of you all think bad about me but i have to make this post. Then ima take a break from onrpg. Well i guess this is my last vent post for a while. Any ways my mind is full of dark evil thoughts. I think every day of murder. Hate. And death, I want to see the next life. I dont want to wait. But i have too. I know i dont act like a normal persion. Well thing is im not normal. I spent most of my life locked up in mental hospitals. I take a ton of meds every day just to keep me in line. Thing is they dont work. IM still sad. I still here voices. I still have this mental illness. There is no cure for me. I offend people i know. IM sorry. I try to act normal. But it is very hard for me. Any ways. IM sorry
I am going to most likey take a break from onrpg. For a while. Im going to try to get me a job to hopefly give me something to do to make my mind not race. And hopeing to keep it in line.
Im sorry
