Im sorry

[ozz8888]

First of all i want too say im sorry,

I know i act weird. Strange odd. What ever. Thing is im very loney. And sad. I dont have nothing to do but talk to my self. And to the voices in my head. I made one of my only friend look stupid. I am sorry. I wont say who it is.

Again im sorry. A lot of you guys have a life. My life is the same goddamn thing every day. Get up. Wake up. Then it starts. Im alone in my own world. I hate every thing about my self.I hate life. I hate liveing. But i deal with it. I did do one good thing and that is that quit cutting. But the urges are still there. I still have my toys. But locked away. I have a very dark mind. And i know what im about to say is going to most likey make many of you all think bad about me but i have to make this post. Then ima take a break from onrpg. Well i guess this is my last vent post for a while. Any ways my mind is full of dark evil thoughts. I think every day of murder. Hate. And death, I want to see the next life. I dont want to wait. But i have too. I know i dont act like a normal persion. Well thing is im not normal. I spent most of my life locked up in mental hospitals. I take a ton of meds every day just to keep me in line. Thing is they dont work. IM still sad. I still here voices. I still have this mental illness. There is no cure for me. I offend people i know. IM sorry. I try to act normal. But it is very hard for me. Any ways. IM sorry

I am going to most likey take a break from onrpg. For a while. Im going to try to get me a job to hopefly give me something to do to make my mind not race. And hopeing to keep it in line.


IM SORRY TO THOSE I OFFEND.

[Str1der]

You mentioned a church in a previous thread. I really think getting involved in that could do you a whole lot of good.

This, a thousand times, this. Even if it's "not your thing", the support group they can provide you will still be valuable. Try and get involved in a youth group and just see where it goes.

[IronyTaken]

It doesn't have to be a church.
It can be any type social group.

Although I did enjoy the church youth group I went to when I was a kid even though I am an atheist.

They did all sorts of fun activities.
Our pastor was really easygoing, we even got together for an all night gaming party every New Years Eve.

Just get into some active group and try to add new stuff to do every day.
I am not sure of your age but most teenagers go through some sort of depressing state like your's.

It's important to stay active and make some goals.
The goals don't have to be anything big either you just need to set up stuff to look forward to.

[Lawliet1]

Try therapy.

I went to a therapy group session to see if it would help my problems.I quickly learned that their are people with far worse and ****ed up problems than me.

After hearing this chick talk about her miscarried baby and her abusive boyfriend i asked myself..."why am i hear again?...i'll go play resident evil 5" and never came back.

[Gattsu]

Get a girlfriend, they fix everything.... seriously

[Oisterman]

Dude you just gotta chill on all this sorry business. Be who you are, **** everyone that can't appreciate it.

Do whatcha do. Apologise for nothing.

[BadpcGuy]

I have no one to talk to about my problems. No one at all. I give up. Im just a goddamn terrbial persion. You guys all ways say go talk to some one. Who am i going to talk to. I cant go up to some one and tell them about my problems. Ill get locked up again. ive been locked up for more then 10 times. What ever. IMa go get my razors . And just slice my self up **** life

im going to bed. Im not going to be online for a while. So go on and bash me and what ever. Im done

I'm not bashing I'm saying stop with the self pity thats probably why your down so much.

Like your manipulating what I said into saying you was a bad person wtf.

If I remember right said your a nice dude just your self pity is such downer.

[Useless]

Well ozz, lemme help you you out a bit.

I realize you lack confidence in a lot of thing you do. My advice for you start easy is just find a job. Its a good environment to have co-workers and make friends out of them. When I say job, something like retail or in a mall, is very helpful.

No one is a terrible person, just misunderstood. You got to realize that people take advantage of the weak, if you act normal people don't question. It may be hard for you to be normal but as I said, take it slow and easy. A job is the first step to normalcy. Make friends through co-workers, meet customers or people on the job.

Even if you're not normal on the inside, just act the part.

[ozz8888]

thank you guys. Im going to try to find a job. Problem is i dont have high school diploma are ged. But i am going to be trying this community work force thingy.They help you get work. I hope it gos well.

Sorry if i made any one upset lastnight. I was in a very sour mood. I think ima get me a hobbie.

[Professor Cena]

Make an emo blog and go blog about yr awful life there.
And get rly many emo followers.
Success.
also stop qq'ing.

[ozz8888]

Make an emo blog and go blog about yr awful life there.
And get rly many emo followers.
Success.
also stop qq'ing.

Im not emo >< But thank you for being a total *** towards me. I have no were as to vent so i go here. Fine i will keep it bottled up till a blow up and go off is that what you want???

[Professor Cena]

Im not emo >< But thank you for being a total *** towards me. I have no were as to vent so i go here. Fine i will keep it bottled up till a blow up and go off is that what you want???

You manage to reach new levels of pathetic every post you make.
Kudos!

[ozz8888]

You manage to reach new levels of pathetic every post you make.
Kudos!

thank you asshole. Ive done nothing wrong.