hi. i am 15 from uk in year11 high school

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i am really kind of sad right now, i dont know what i am and what i will become in my lifetime but what ive always been into is computers and technology.

i am not dumb but not smart, i think i could of bin in the top sets if i really tried but ive blown that now, im coming to the last year of high school and i know i am going to get bad grades, but just enough to get in to a good college

i am scared if i dont get a good job in my life, i don't want to be a slacker but i dont have enough motivation to do anything

i have heard about computer programming, but ive also heard it takes a lot of good grades and intelligence, does anyone know if i can pick it up in college, ive tried learning a bit about simple c++ and html but not for long, as well as source development kit.

to get a good career does anyone know what i could do in college, maths has always been my favourite subject but i wont even get a good grade, most likely a C but i might be able to pull off a B

i know this is random but i cant be bothered to register on an other forum or yahoo answers after being banned twice, i am too curious to know, its starting to make me depressed knowing that i have f'ed up my life from birth, as my farther and siblings are so much more intelligent that me

please tell me anything you know or tips what i should be doing as a 15 year old boy in his last year of high school, with no good gcse's

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